Pouring Back

I have been finding my cup a bit empty for way too long, wanting to go this way and then that, to and fro’ing around to find my next big challenge. Do I build, do I sit back and wait for the stars to align, do I pursue wood working, do I pursue photography, do I pursue content creation? Let's rewind a bit, I’m living my dream, not in the location I had envisioned but as far as my dream board goes, I have ticked multiple boxes and am for the most part exactly where I wanted to be. So why the incessant hustle going on in mind of chasing large objectives. I have realised of late why I am unconsciously blocking my business brain. I know business is in my blood and I have been craving getting new activities going but just as soon as I find a plan or direction, I do an about turn moving on to the next big idea, but never executing any. Patterns of how I was showing up in my past business caused me a great deal of pain, there was a lot of self dismissal and always bending to others needs or expectations. This behaviour started to create a negative association with the generation of money through business, the pursuit and acquisition of money meant there was a certain amount of pain that came along with it, a tax if you will. I went off in search of financial sources that didn’t involve people interaction and for the most part I did find what I was looking for. The problem was, I found zero fulfilment in that process, I had the freedom to not stress too much over immediate resources but my mind could not rest. I was craving something to put back into society, whether it be content, thoughts, art or product and dam when there are options, it’s hard to choose. I went from wanting to build a cabin to pursuing my passion in woodworking to wanting to sell everything and just travel and take photo’s for a living. And in all this bouncing around there has been one common thread, creativity. The wanting to build brought a beautiful A-Frame to yard, this created a passion for woodworking which created the need for quality images or content which got me to get a quality camera which got me in into photography and now video content creation. All passions of mine, slowly merging into one path all feeding into each other, adding value to one another and slowly starting to fill up that cup that has sat empty for so long.